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Message from Billy [Apr. 9th, 2009|03:39 pm]
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Hello from sunny California, where I'm currently working with some of my friends on new SP songs. The mood here is relaxed, serene, and studious as my pals are helping me with some TLC to zero-in on the new direction that I'm trying to take the music. I've made many, many mistakes through the years, and one of them is that I often rush headlong into my next album without really taking the time to reflect on what I've just done, and test my resolve a little on where I'm going. One small detail that I think was beneficial to the band in the early years was we practiced a lot. It wasn't uncommon to have weeks where we practiced 30+ hours, which may not sound like a lot but at high volume this was very fatiguing, and of course exciting too. Through all that playing you would easily come into contact with the emotional value of whether or not a song 'worked', so to speak. Add to that another 20-30 hours per week at home writing music and lyrics, and you can see I was very immersed in that process of checking my ideas between head, home, heart, and practice.

Right now we are just focused on about 5 or 6 songs, using them to try out some new feels to try to find a consistent foundation upon which to build this large multimedia project I have in mind. 44 seems to be the magic #, so let's say I'm shooting for 44 songs on this one. I'll get to how I plan to release them later. Because the work will be conceptual in nature planning it all out also I think will help keep me from losing my way in the evil forest.

I'm going to step right into the heat of the matter now and address the infamous 'why?' question. The why being 'why' I have chosen to continue on under the Smashing Pumpkins banner considering I am the only remaining original member? The simple answer is that when I decided to write and record again under the name The Smashing Pumpkins in 2005, I committed myself 100 pct. 100pct of my mind-body-soul to come back and make the band really be great again, and I feel in tune to SP in a way I haven't felt in tune probably since 1995 or 1996. As they say in No Limit Poker, I'm 'all in'. I'm not going to back out of the challenge in front of me now. I'm absolutely exhilarated by what I see and feel the future to be for SP. There is a difference in how I think and approach a body of work for the Pumpkins then say I would as a solo artist or under any other name. Being the near lone songwriter for the Pumpkins has always made me want to put all the diverse harmonic fragments in my mind together, and it has been an incredible musical journey so far to keep trying to match up to the size of that idea. I truly am not focused on where I've been now as much as where I am going, and I haven't felt that way for a very long time.

I appreciate that for many fans, the public part of my musical journey has often been quite confusing. I've tried to explain many times in both public and private venues that it's really not so different than a character on tv who embodies the role they are in. I don't think there is anything inauthentic about my play-acting within those created personas (zero, the whyte spider, the sad guy, the vampyre, etc) and acting them out on the grand stage in front of the glare of whoever cares. That to me IS what rock and roll is about. But many lack the sophistication to appreciate that just because I play a baby-faced killa upon the darkened stage that it doesn't come close to who I really am. I would point very gently to the diversity and complexity of my artistic work to give you some sense of who Billy Corgan really is (that is a joking 3rd person by the way). Part-alien, part-human, part-robot, part-star-crossed lover and part-mercury filled apparently if one was to read the songs in that way. I am a sensitive soul and I make no apologies for that. As Popeye said, ”I yam who I yam”. Or in my case maybe it’s ”I am who I ain’t.”

I am at peace now with the idea that SP is worth bringing to life again and again, because the challenge of the band's shadow has inspired some great work. It's also just a name, THE Smashing Pumpkins (it just rolls off the tongue, don't it??). It’s a dumb name, but I choose it cause I thought it was funny (yes, funny in 1987 ha ha). All that aside, what the band represents to me and obviously to so many fans SYMBOLICALLY is what is really important in my opinion moving forward. I think the energy in the Pumpkins community is fantastic right now. I love the diversity of opinion and perspective. There is nothing to argue about there. But at least there is something to argue over! Meaning SP is substantive once again; there are new songs, questionable decisions, abject failures, and unique triumphs to dissect over and over. Enjoy!

I do plan on doing other things coming up though. I have notions to start 2 other bands and also release some more solo work. I would love to get into more details on those projects but I would like to secure the domain names first because I don't want to have to fight to get them back later. It’s bad enough that I have someone posing as me on Twitter LOL...the general idea is the work of the other groups and solo may intertwine with the SP album as far as a release schedule would go. But I'm all ready ahead of myself there.

So let's get down to business and talk about what the plans are ahead. First up is/are the drum tryouts on the 14th/April. We've received a staggering amount of submissions so far (over 1,000!), so let me say to everyone who has submitted thank you and God Bless you for having the courage to throw your name out there. The auditions on the 14th are just the first round of trying people out. There is no 'hurry' at the moment, as I'm not quite ready to record yet, and it’s possible I may need more than one drummer for what my plans are. So for someone who may think they would never get a chance there is still time in the months ahead to keep trying. I view it as a process to find the right person(s) and it's important that the right consideration is given. Jeff and I will be holding the first round of auditions, with me on bass (lookout!).

As I stated earlier in this post we've just been rocking amongst friends, so for the moment Kerry Brown, my best man and co-producer is manning the skins. The past few days we had Daxx Nielsen in to play on a few things, who is a great drummer himself. Lord forbid I would want 44 different drummers on 44 different tracks, but I suppose anything is possible.

Ok, album plans: first off, I still plan on making an album. I know this may contradict with what I've said publicly but I think I just didn't state what I meant clearly. I meant I don't think I'm going to make albums in the old-fashioned way, meaning 12-15 songs, etc in one small package. My desire at this point would be to release one song at a time, over a period of 2-3 years, with it all adding up to a box set/album of sorts that would also include an art movie of the album. (Sounds like a lot of work, don't it??) My thinking is that if I focus on one song at a time I would approach them as beautiful, distinct paintings that would each require the attention they deserve. This would also mean I would choose what I am recording quite carefully as there would be tremendous internal pressure to get it just right, and that is the kind of pressure I like, which is to make the most beautiful thing possible. I've gotten lost many times during the long haul of making a record and have overlooked some great songs because of that. The new standard for an SP song would that it be excellent and fantastic and most importantly essential or it’s not coming out. I will do my best to meet that intention fully. So soon I will announce (hopefully) that I've begun the process, May being the most likely 'start' date. I will continue on from 'there' until whatever date it all seems finished. That would probably be marked by the release of the final artwork package and the movie. So lots of details to be worked out as you can see. I plan on the first actual song release coming in September. For the new SP I don't think I would be interested in a subscription model unless it was something where enough people wanted a daily access to the work (in progress). I guess we as a community could throw out how many people would be interested in that as an idea. It would definitely have to be something that would be worth the effort on all sides.

Speaking of subscription models, I think Frank Quinto is doing a great job so far as Archive Czar keeping all of us in the loop on his progress. I can say from my end right now the biggest hurdle is sorting out the business side with our former label EMI (once Virgin). As some of you know, there are currently 3 lawsuits; the band is suing EMI, 2 of my former band mates are suing EMI, and EMI is suing me because of the ex-bandmember lawsuit. Thankfully EMI has shown a willingness to try to sort this out and God willing it will be resolved soon. My hope is to have access to all of the unreleased materials (with the contractual rights clearly worked out) so that I can set a plan in motion to get it all out over the next decade. That would be the best way, but sometimes that is not the way it works out. I do have all the Gish unreleased rights, but I don't want to kick start that and by the time we get to Siamese have a whole legal mess on our hands and then have to stop our momentum. It’s all or nothing with the archives. Those with a positive attitude can see that as a blessing because it means if stuff starts to come out it's all coming out.

It is really important for me to re-state first and foremost that the band will remain now and forever about making new music. This is where most of our energy over here belongs. That doesn't say or mean to say anything negative about the past. In fact my posture on it is consistent with the original band vision, which was to always push forward. I'm not about to change that now. That doesn't mean we can't be smart and live in the world of 2009 and approach opportunities with a fresh mindset. Together we can find the right balance.

Many of the old indie-world values that people throw about without context were BS back in the day, and I said so back then too. I am no poster boy for alt-nation because alt-nation found its heroes elsewhere. You can have those heroes now. I am my own man from this day forward. The day SP gets proper credit for what it got right is the day that this can be a different conversation about what I may or may not be entitled to. The funny thing about being left out in the cold is you get used to the temperature.

I want to be quite candid here and say some things I don't think I've ever shared. For many years I've been really unhappy with the stupidity of the music business (that's no secret!). But now I am free from corporate meddling. No contracts, no deadlines to meet, nothing but rainbows ha ha... My wish is that from this day forward this group will represent nothing but love and light. If you see BC out there griping, it is only because I have failed to set the proper conditions to be in the love and light with you. The fan is NOT responsible in any way, shape, or form for my happiness or the my ability to do my job. (Nor have they ever been) If I have given that impression to any of you through the years I am sorry about that. That was an error on my part. When a fan comes to an SP show we owe it to you to put on the best show possible, rain or shine. I believe the days of standing on a stage somewhere in the world feeling torn about why I am up there are over. SP will be about peace from this day forward as well. The music WILL also reflect this shift in devotion and humble gratitude. You shall see!

I would like to end by saying thank you to those who pray for me, and send me well wishes and support. It means a lot to me that there are fans out there who see me as the humble human I truly am. Public life is a brutal, weird game that I have chosen to play for my own convoluted reasons my OWN way. I wish it was as simple as being about the trappings normally associated with fame! If only life were so simple. But it ain’t...but that too shall change. SP can and will represent a new kind of way of connecting my music with you in a way that leaves both parties feeling better for it. You have my personal promise on that.
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From: ainjel
2009-04-10 01:47 am (UTC)

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you're doin' fine. as long as you love what you do, that's all that matters. :)
[User Picture]From: navajo
2009-04-10 02:05 am (UTC)

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I've been and continue to be so happy about your resolve from the point of the band's re-emergence, and into the future. Its clear the Pumpkins are not going anywhere.

My one question in this, is what is to become of some of the new friends that have joined along the way- great musicians such as Jeff Schroeder and Ginger Reyes who myself and others have coem to adore along the way? I'd personally love to see them sticking around if willing. Can you give any insight about what their involvement in this new, gigantic project might be?
[User Picture]From: promiseoftin
2009-04-12 01:13 am (UTC)

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Looks like Ginger is out, as she and her husband have a baby on the way, and she intends on focusing on her own music. Jeff remains! :)
[User Picture]From: ritzcrackerman
2009-04-10 02:13 am (UTC)

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I salute, you sir. Put out what you love and take your time. Your body of work speaks for itself.
[User Picture]From: nora_t
2009-04-10 02:36 am (UTC)

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As Sinead O'Connor sang, "nothing compares 2 u." Am waiting for some more beautiful songs.
[User Picture]From: leelah
2009-04-10 02:56 am (UTC)

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this excites me.
[User Picture]From: jolefay
2009-04-10 03:11 am (UTC)

Wow

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Talented and a beautiful soul. Knew it was there. The confirmation is tear jerking. Love and Light back to you Billy.
[User Picture]From: metanoia_cw
2009-04-10 03:48 am (UTC)

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Thanks for being so open with what is happening. I will look forward to hearing the next album.
[User Picture]From: tonights
2009-04-10 03:50 am (UTC)

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I'm so excited to hear what you have for us next! I expect it'll be something mindblowingly amazing. Thank you for taking the time to let us know what's up.
[User Picture]From: mmelonghairs
2009-04-10 04:23 am (UTC)

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Drum Auditions? Where can I submit??
From: cor_mio
2009-04-10 04:49 am (UTC)

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I think it's pathetic (in both the sense of worthy of pity and pitiful) that Billy has to keep defending his actions.

I don't believe in the Pumpkins "reunion" - yet I can understand how recording under the Pumpkins' name can inspire Billy in a way that recording solo cannot ... but I still argue that Billy does not = "The Pumpkins". His new work has yet to convince me otherwise.

I like the idea of recording "one song at a time," over the course of years. Take your time and give us something grand. Either give us something grand or don't bother giving us anything at all!
[User Picture]From: sleepdprived
2009-04-10 12:47 pm (UTC)

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Agreed on the first two points 100%.
[User Picture]From: have_u_noticed
2009-04-10 04:53 am (UTC)

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I am very excited about this conceptual multi-media project and I cannot wait to hear more about it. I have always wondered what you could do if you were to step into the world of film making. I think that musically you are beautiful and unique and I would love nothing more than to see that beauty realized visually.
From: leahah
2009-04-10 05:23 am (UTC)

Dear Billy

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Thank you for the update and for showing more of yourself. I'm sorry for being mean in past comments, its not your fault, just something that happened in the past.
[User Picture]From: ceciliacarnage
2009-04-10 07:10 am (UTC)

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I hate that you feel you have to explain yourself constantly. Some people may criticize for whatever reason but you are entitled to feel and say what you want.

The fact that you keep doing what you do is enough. No need to explain everything. Although it seems some people make you feel as though you ahev to.
[User Picture]From: billycorganluva
2009-04-10 10:59 am (UTC)

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I've been a huge fan of you since I was 14.. And now that I'm 30::::vomitts::::: you have never let me down in the choices you make!!
Can't wait for what's next!
[User Picture]From: burningofroissy
2009-04-10 11:32 am (UTC)

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That's an interesting concept for making an album. It seems more in line with the way songs actually come into being, which is usually one or two at a time [or kernels of several at a time, developing in different directions] rather than just sitting down and writing the whole thing at once.

I like the idea of approaching the songs individually like paintings. Also, some songs work as paintings and some do better as pencil sketches or graffiti. Can't speak for anybody else, but I like all three. :)
From: cor_mio
2009-04-10 03:24 pm (UTC)

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"some songs work as paintings and some do better as pencil sketches or graffiti."

Well said.
[User Picture]From: audiotrack07
2009-04-10 01:52 pm (UTC)

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I agree with the comment a few posts above that I hate that you have to constantly explain yourself. You have put up with a lot of criticism throughout the years and I give you props for moving on and doing what you want. All you can do is keep on truckin' lol. I mean, we see everyday how celebs are cracking under the pressure.

Your transformation as a musician and as a person has been a long and profound journey. I will always love the old SP and welcome the new. I was too young to see the original band back in the day, but I still continued to rock out in my room. The fact that I can still see you in concert now means a lot. Thanks for continuing and good luck.
[User Picture]From: colormeblind
2009-04-11 03:26 am (UTC)

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are you me????
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From: cor_mio
2009-04-10 03:22 pm (UTC)

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Interesting comment.
[User Picture]From: indiwise
2009-04-10 09:17 pm (UTC)

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Just glad you're still around. Isn't that enough for some people? :)
From: (Anonymous)
2009-04-11 03:15 am (UTC)

Wow

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Sounds like quite the ambitious project! Hopefully everything will go according your vision and I look forward to collecting each song piece by piece and finally ending with the boxed set. I don't think most fans saw your actions as anything against them. Your banters are funny and from meeting you in person, those 20 minutes are forever etched into my brain. You were such a quiet and understanding guy, despite all the attention you were getting that you just didn't want that night, you handled yourself so well. It's okay if people don't acknowledge The Smashing Pumpkins for their contribution to alt-rock, I think any fan of atl-rock knows exactly how much you put in and how much you have inspired. Rainbows and smiles Billy, enjoy them both and keep on rockin'!

-Shea
From: simononline
2009-04-11 03:25 am (UTC)

Poem for Billy

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May the boy in you never die,
As the man in you is right.
May your doubts and fears,
become the staircase to your hopes and triumphs.
May peace be your companion,
And truth a faithful friend.
Enduring what today brings,
'Til tomorrow never ends.
[User Picture]From: shimmerhawk
2009-04-11 04:07 am (UTC)

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Looking forward to your new music as always.
From: (Anonymous)
2009-04-11 04:16 am (UTC)

Clay Barnum - Mahalo

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He sent in his 'application' and I will tell you he IS the best drummer. I've been around for awhile i.e., Big Hat aka Preston Klik. Clay surpasses all. Give him a nod. Clay's drumming is intense and humble at the same time. He drums just for the love of the rhythm.
[User Picture]From: lizam1968
2009-04-11 04:20 am (UTC)

And I still see you as a humble human...no matter what is said...posted...written...

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Music is a gift and you are fortunate to do what you love for a living. I can only imagine what you must feel like under the public scrutiny when they are attacking every thing you have worked for? My instinct would be to come back fighting harder. I'd like to think I have a thick skin. People can be cruel. You handle it well and still manage to keep a sense of humor...my motto in life :) I often wonder about those that can not separate fantasy from reality. It's sad to think they do not get to enjoy the power of imagination and the richness of what real life has to offer. In the end...your true self shows through the distorted views :)

Continue to shine and live life fully Billy...and the rest will work itself out...you just continue to do what you do well :)

Lisa

From: (Anonymous)
2009-04-11 12:17 pm (UTC)

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It would be great if you can visit Russia with your music and poetry! best wishes.
From: (Anonymous)
2009-04-12 06:17 pm (UTC)

Great

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That sounds perfect to me.
You are an artist and its a shame when an artwork is less than it could be because the artist was rushed or distracted.
Love and Light Always.
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